Nick Vujicic

http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/

Wonder

Why are human beings are so often at war with themselves? We must still be unsure of who we are and I mean who in a figurative sense. If we knew what kind of people we were, would we not respond as robots do to each stimulus?

Instead, we are aware that as human beings we are fallible. A squirrel does not leap from one branch to the next considering, "What happens if I make a mistake?" A turtle does not leave his eggs on the shore thinking,"What if my babies don't make it to the sea?" It may be true that animals are not impacted by time, they do not consider what may happen in the future and yet bears eat enough food to sleep a whole winter. It must come down to the fact that our fellow living organisms are impacted too much by nature where as we are impacted too much by society. One can argue that society is shaped by nature and thus, human beings are in fact impacted by nature as well, yet the same person would have to argue then, that a child is born to his or her grandmother rather than to his or her mother who was born to his or her grandmother. You can see, it is not the same.

Instead, we are aware that as human beings we can change. Experience begets wisdom, so many say. You may react to something one way, experience something that makes you reconsider, and next time when presented with the same stimulus, act in another, completely contrasting way. It is even true that sometimes, these decisions are spurious, without "careful" consideration. What makes it hard to predict what humans will do is the fact that we are spontaneous. Take this simple example, it is well know that a person, A's favorite color is blue. A's friends decide to buy him a car, being the rich friends they are, they decide to bring A with them to pick it out. He chooses a red car in the end. What made A decide to choose a red car instead of a blue car, his friends wonder? They try to rationalize it, they believe, as most human beings do, that everything has a reason. The red cars were cheaper. The red cards were more aesthetically pleasing. But could it be because A suddenly had a change of heart and would like to drive a red car? If you asked him what his favorite color is, he would still reply that it is blue. If you asked him later if he regretted his decision, he may even say he did.

Is the reason then that as human beings impacted strongly by society, we are constantly at war with ourselves, simply because we are the only species to be conscious of the theory of a future and to be aware of the process of change? Are we TOO comfortable in how we live, so that what we do is in fact opposite of what we should or what we are "programmed" to do?

Now.

Things sound different.

(Why my dictionary broke!)

What a complete failure.

Metro office claimed their Q-card service was not the same as Baylor's Q-card service. (BTW what is Baylor's Q-card service?)

Tried to explain we all got our Q-cards during orientation which is for students at Baylor but was told that I still needed a schedule for Baylor to prove I'm a Baylor student. All this because of that stupid $50 Q-card I got from Rice that I never picked up and is now void but is still linked to my name. Oh BTW, after all this I went to the library from Baylor and it was closed.

GJ Metro for saying I couldn't get another Q-card cause I already had one and then saying I couldn't get one even though I applied for it at orientation and needed to prove I was indeed a student and didn't attend orientation just because I had time to kill.

GJ Self for not checking online before going to the library when it was closed.

So many in a day.

silence stands alone amidst the chaos
listen for it
it is there

behind the darkness of closed eyes, there is light
the first time when i closed my eyes to open them

turn to look behind for things that are lost
what you wait for is there waiting for you

happiness is missing in your smile
everything else is there
complete

Walking down these pebbled streets...

Some are cracked.
Some are well formed.
Some look as if they were put in yesterday.
Some as if they have been here for much longer.

Often we feel that our lives are somewhat disengaged from reality. We process our surroundings saying, yes this feels right, this belongs, this is how it should be. The familiar faces flashed by and I am able to feel that expectation of them.

Open your eyes. Now expectation turns to hope. The trees blanketing the campus from the watchful eyes above are there, the stones between my shoes are real. I can feel the smooth rounded tops, the crevices in between.

But these people here are not who I expected-hoped they would be. In my memories there is none of this searching. The only place where it fits is in this thing we understand as reality. Are you hiding those things I know to be true above your leaves in the sky?

Now there you go again
You say you want your freedom
Who am I to keep you down...down
It's only right that you should
Play it the way that you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering
What you had, And what you lost
Ooooh, say what you had, you know what you lost

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
They say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You will know

Here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself, yeah
It's only me who wants to wrap around your dreams and
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of Loneliness, like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering
What you had, And what you lost
Oooh, says what you had, you know what you lost

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
They say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know

Oh thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
They say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You'll know
You will know
Oh oh oh you'll know

Psalm 23

 ¹ The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

 ² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
       he leads me beside quiet waters,
 ³ he restores my soul.
       He guides me in paths of righteousness
       for his name's sake.
 ⁴ Even though I walk
       through the valley of the shadow of death,
       I will fear no evil,
       for you are with me;
       your rod and your staff,
       they comfort me.
 ⁵ You prepare a table before me
       in the presence of my enemies.
       You anoint my head with oil;
       my cup overflows.
 ⁶ Surely goodness and love will follow me
       all the days of my life,
       and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
       forever.


Curious about this poem after reading the synposis of The Wicker Man, a 1973 film, purported to be one of the worst films in history.